Wow. I finally just took the time to finish my book that I have been pushing off until “someday.” It sure took me a while to validate giving myself the time, as well as not feeling guilty about not starting a new load of laundry or cleaning this or checking on that while I read. You know what I just realized? I’m not sure my grandmother or my fiance would even actually “notice” if I don’t do those things exactly when I feel responsible for doing them. Heck, when I ask my Fiance to take out the garbage...he does. But, he “gets to it” when he feels like it, which means that most of the time I can’t stand it any longer and I take it out myself before he can “get to it.”
Realizing that, is now my new goal to start giving myself a little slack in my duties. I actually take joy in completing my chores and errands, so that is not the issue. But my new goal is to think about myself a little and “cheat” on time a little. Even though I just sat down and forced myself to finish my book, I enjoyed it. And I don’t think anyone blamed me for taking that time out for myself. It felt really wonderful, especially because my puppy napped in my lap the entire time (which she does more now that she is 3, but when she was younger she really could not sit still long enough). And in conclusion, with this new “epiphany,” I need to give myself more of a break on exactly how soon I start on my Todo lists each day! (And honestly? I’m not sure anyone in this house is going to notice if I don’t get to the laundry, etc first thing in the morning... So I might as well allow myself a relaxed morning! If I were to really embrace this attitude, they might not even notice until their underwear drawers were empty or the towel closet was bare! Lol! But don’t get confused, I LOVE taking care of them, I LOVE that they trust me to take care of them with no doubts of my dedication to them. But if I did let it get out of hand, the thought of that surprised look on their faces would be a little funny....almost like they would wonder where the “laundry fairy” had gone on vacation and without notice!).
Even though this epiphany and new goal sounds like I am totally embracing it, (I must confess), there might be a little bit of backstory that created it... I have been having horrible allergies the past couple of years, and last year I was finally given a prescription for allergy medicine. Last year at the beginning of summer I was continually losing my voice for about 2 whole months! Well yes, this summer, it is happening again. The lost voice hasn’t been too bad, until I woke up this morning! My throat is SO SO SO sore! Ugh. This is making me have to cancel my entire day and I’m bummed about missing out on all of my plans. Not only am I disappointing myself, I’m letting down my sister, Mother, Father, Fiance and even my Boot Camp Fitness instructors because I have to go cancel my sister, Fiance and my reservations for tonight’s class! :’(
Uh, oh, I cannot wait to get back to my Todo list already (now that the book is finished).
So why did I sit down this morning to read?
Maybe I finally sat down and gave myself time to read that book because I’m bummed and feeling under the weather? Nah, I had an epiphany! ;D
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Taking time for yourself is soooooo important. Funny thing? I'm just rediscovering that myself. It's better for your health, happiness, and relationships. I still forget sometimes, but I'm working on it. :) Hey. I sent you a letter. Well... my hubby woul get fired if he worked for the usps. He was supposed to take it with him, since he has stamps in his car, and mail it for me. But he left it on the south end ferry and it wasn't there on his trip back (nor in the lost and found). My hope is that some kind soul stamped it and mailed it. Or at least mailed it (then it'll come back to me). Let me know. I think I'll give it a week to see if it turns up. :)
Thanks for reading Jamie! And I think that is hilarious that Tony accidentally left it on the ferry! I do things like that all the time. And I totally forgive you for the whole mix up, I think it's funny that you actually did "attempt" to send me a letter back, because before you told me this story I was worried my card got lost in the mail! Well only time will tell whether it will come back (like a message in a bottle)! ;D
p.s. Austin always has to check if I've put stamps on things before he drops it in the box for me, a lot of times there is not! I think it's so sweet that he thinks to check after me! lol!
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